{"id":11353,"date":"2025-11-06T15:49:34","date_gmt":"2025-11-06T20:49:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rickollie.com\/?p=11353"},"modified":"2025-11-06T17:19:04","modified_gmt":"2025-11-06T22:19:04","slug":"cancer-and-my-last-fuck-which-will-give-in-first","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rickollie.com\/es\/2025\/11\/06\/cancer-and-my-last-fuck-which-will-give-in-first\/","title":{"rendered":"Cancer and My ‘Last Fuck’ – Which Will Give in First"},"content":{"rendered":"

Cancer Updates<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Saturday, November 1, 6:45 AM<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Five days seems a bit early to begin writing a prelude to this week’s urology appointment. But why not, some things have come up and better to journal them now as to not forget.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Urologist<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

My urologist finally returned a call yesterday after trying to contact him for the past two weeks. I know, the thought has crossed my mind. But my upcoming appointment with him is too close to go new doctor hunting. Yet the information is stored.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

With no apology and only a ‘I was unavailable,’ he said he had just spoken to my oncologist about a PET<\/a><\/em><\/strong> and MRI<\/a><\/em><\/strong> scan. I told him we agreed on the PET. Then reminded him if an MRI was ordered I’d have to go to another hospital and have it done. My ICD is an Abbott device and the lead wire connecting it to my heart is Medtronic.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hospitals, including where my oncologist works from, refuses to do MRIs on crossovers. That’s because they fear potential lawsuits if something goes wrong.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fortunately, the hospital my cardiologist works out of does do them. But at last inquiry, there’s a lengthy waiting list. So, the PET is the next best option. I, also, mentioned to him that oncology gave me a script for a new PSA test prior to seeing him.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This PSA came with two reasonings. First the oncologist wanted the urologist to have the newer results. Secondly, the oncologist isn’t one hundred percent sure the latest biopsy results aren’t ‘false positives<\/em><\/strong>.’ Those show more often in patients like me, that have gone through radiation therapy and haven’t reached their second anniversary of completed treatment. That doesn’t occur until near the end of December. And the new numbers would help him track it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He told me that the PSA test was unnecessary because the numbers would be high for up to a month because of my recent biopsy. (But it will have been over a month by the time it’s done)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Then said he’d order Lupron<\/a><\/em><\/strong> which reduces testosterone levels in men which is needed for cancers growth. Instead of feeding it, he’ll starve it or diminish its ability to enlarge itself by lowering its growth source.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The possible side effects are crazy. From hot flashes to shrunken testicles it’s all included. Rest assured I’m contacting my cardiologist before any injection. Last thing I need is a damn heart attack.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Inspiration<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

I told my therapist, in an article<\/a>, that all I wanted in life was to be remembered when I was gone. In my heart, I was actually talking about being remembered by the masses. And I’d still like that. But now … <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Recently I was surprised by the love shown to me from a dear friend. Tracy<\/a><\/em><\/strong> and I met a couple years ago while we were both struggling from our own demons and stayed close. She’s since started a singing career and had tagged me in a song a while back. In partial the tag read. “I\u2019m giving a shout-out to two of those angels who showed up in my life and helped me find the courage to share with you today.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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